LOSER

Technically,for the past 8 years or so, I've been thinking ONLY about my dream of becoming a fashion design. It's always "fashion design" I thought about. Now, I'm standing in the middle of a cross-road. I should feel fortunate that I still have other options to choose from but honestly, it's making me scared and giving me a massive headache. Maybe I don't want fashion design that much. Maybe baking would be a better option. Maybe this and maybe that. Someone, please tell me what should I do. I'm not even done with my portfolio FOR fashion design and yet I'm having doubts about my ability. I don't know why, but I'm losing inspiration as the days go by. I don't feel like an artist as the days go by. I can't feel that aura anymore. WHAT HAVE I BEEN DOING?!!?!?!? A part of me is telling me " you do not want this, just forget it, it's not suitable for you". Another part of me tells me" What? You've been doing this for half your life and now you're almost there and you're giving up? You haven't even tried! It's your dream" Ugh, these thoughts keep haunting me. Alright. I guess the plan is... To apply for TP Apparel design and merchandising and... baking and culinary blah blah and... Lasalle Fashion design, NAFA fashion design.. Ugh If both fail... I'll go to product design. Why is this happening to me.